
I hope everyone had a week. I have not had a good week IN THE SLIGHTEST! It started out great but promptly went south Tuesday afternoon when my husband's doctor called and I discovered that the cancerous kidney that was removed in-may 09 has now spread to his lungs. I've been trapped in an emotional whirlwind since then. We've got a meeting tomorrow morning with his oncologist.
I have started a journal and I am taking it with me to the appt and I need the replies to the questions I have jotted down. I understand that you are probably thinking "why did the physician deliver this kind of news over the phone?" but trust me if I did not force it out of the physician, my husband could have followed with him and hid it from me. He did it to me in May 09 if they removed his kidney. He knew full well that the tumor inside it was cancerous and I had no clue till the surgeon came out and said to me "well the good news is the cancer was entirely contained inside the kidney and it looks like there was nothing on his lymph nodes so that's good!" I was completely floored and I wanted to march to the recovery device and KILL my husband!! It wasn't the time or the place so I figured it was a great thought to wait til he was house to kill him!
I never got the opportunity to do it but let me just say if he doesn't go to this physician's appt monday he doesn't have to be concerned about cancer-killing him cause I am gonna take care of that for him!! His strategy will be to go to work Monday morning and get paperwork prepped for new pupils coming in and then leave and come meet me for the dr appt. I know how he gets when he is in work, he gets side-tracked, incredibly pre occupied and active and he readily forgets important things. I already told him if he wasn't at that appointment on time what his destiny was!!
I already figured out just how to inform the boys once we know what we are dealing with. They can be Autistic and are into such things as germs, animals, science and nature so I'm gonna tell them that Daddy has a really awful germ they can not catch inside his body and he will have to visit the doctor to receive treatments or meds (whatever the plan of action is) to help his body fight the germ. They are just 6 and might not fully understand cancer so germs is the best way I can explain it for now. I'll eventually need to come out and explain exactly what this germ is if it lingers on for a few years. I am hoping with everything inside my body this physician has a magic "death to cancer" pill and he can be treated immediately. Probably... No such luck so this is what I've thought of to tell them that the anxiety in the home or even the tears they see are not their fault and is the germs fault!
On a far lighter note. I have some product reviews I had like to share.
So between my son Michael's night terrors and sensory overload issues, CJ's recurring biting managing mechenism and his sensory overload and now this with my husband, I'm so surprised I never have hit the bottle!! That's just what everyone needs is to have their very own issues and take care of me drinking!! So I am doing plenty of emotional eating. I'm good during the day however it is at night after everyone goes to bed that I will be at my WORST. Most nights are awful but I've had worst nights this week than many others!! I'm crying at the drop of a hat but mercifully NEVER in front of the boys so far! And all I need to do is literally destroy this cancer animal for having the audacity of coming back into my life after claiming my Mom and Father!!
The very first one is the Debbie Meyer Green Containers sold from HSN. These containers are fantabulous! They actually do what they say they do. Your meal actually stays fresher much more. My Sis - I - L in San Fran sent me a set and I love them so much I bought another set.
The next one is the Ped Egg. I love this little thing. It is like a mini microplane greater for the toes. My feet were forever dry and sore but it was getting worse as the years were passing. I got this thing and having a little pet jelly (my feet were that dry) or cream (I use this now) during the night and using the Ped Egg before applying said pj/lotion, my feet feel wonderful!!! No malady, no soreness, no more dry cracked feet!!!! This all-in less than a week!
The third is a set of white moisture gloves I purchased at the $1.00 shop when you can believe that. I have been having dry, fantastic skin problems with my hands for the last couple of months and no matter what I was doing nothing was working. I have been putting these gloves on and heavily lotioning my hands at night and they feel great in the morning! I was astonished that the option to my difficulty was in the $1.00 shop!! LOL
I am so sorry for going on and on and boring you guys!
Enough about my issues...tell us about your week and what is coming up for this week for you. Something new and exciting, any new problems you are facing? Seriously sisters, discuss it here.